if only characters were real.

...Why is Alistair just a character in a video game? He should be real.

Love. Love. Love. Love.

I love the game for automatically taking this screenshot.

I want my own Alistair. Right now.

questions.

It's nights like the last two, when my insomnia gets the better of me and I'm left to sit awake and wonder:

Do you think about me as much as I think about you?

Do you miss me like I miss you?

If your answers are yes, why don't you just tell me how you feel?

What are you so afraid of? Can I help?

I'm afraid, too. I thought that much has been obvious. 

...Scared that if I tell you how I feel, you'll run. I lost you once, I found out I can survive without you and your friendship, but then you came back and now I'm not sure I could do it again. 

...If I ran or forced myself to move on (like last time) would you chase? Would you do everything in your power to get me back? 

I don't know the answers to these questions and that's what bothers me. Though they may seem like a way of rushing things, I'm not asking for much, really.

Think about it...

Friends let each other know when one is missed.

Friends tell each other how they feel about just about anything.

Friends tell each other when they cross the other's mind.

True friends to everything in their power not to lose what they have.

...I'm not asking to rush to any decisions about "us" or whatever, just to have my friend back. Like how it used to be, only even better. 

Anything deeper than that can wait, I just want a more consistent friendship. Don't be afraid to talk to me.

...Most important question: Why don't you talk to me when I'm not in town? Why do you only respond to a select few things I send you?

...Makes me feel rejected and forgotten. You mean a lot to me, and if I mean nothing I need to know so I can attempt to salvage what's left of me and move on.

what do your elf eyes see?

Insomnia strikes again. I'm in a Lord of the Rings sort of mood right now, so I've been looking up random LotR stuff and decided I quite enjoyed this progression of photos:

I think Boromir's facpalm is one of the most epic one's I've seen.

And now...LotR picture spam, huzzah!

 Love. Farimir. Love.

 My Lovies, Merry and Pippin.

One ring to rule them all....

Hobbitses!

This picture is bad ass.

I *heart* Legolas.

Eowyn is amazing.

Tee hee!

Oh, memes.

They turned northeast in order to do so. 

Chill out, dude.

ode to old school avril.

I'm With You by Avril Lavigne

Im standing on the bridge

Im waiting on the dark

I thought that you'd be here

by now

Ther's nothing but the rain

no foot steps on the ground

Im listening but ther's 

no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me

Won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are but I

Im with you

Im with you

Im looking for a place

Im sarching for a face

Is anybody here 

I know

Cause nothing's going right

And everything's a mess

And no one likes to be

alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me

Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I 

Im with you 

Im with you

Oh

Why is every thing so confusing?

Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah...

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand 

Take me somewhere new

I don't Know Who You are

But I 

Im with you

Im with you

Take me by the hand 

Take me somewhere new

I don't Know Who You are

But I 

Im with you

Im with you

Take me by the hand 

Take me somewhere new

I don't Know Who You are

But I 

Im with you

Im with you

Avril is perfect for my angsty moods. didn't realize that until last weekend. Girl power, I suppose. Not in a sharing sort of mood, save for posting these lyrics and this video. I used to be totally obsessed with this song. It is probably my favorite from Let Go, with the exception of Losing Grip...which, oddly enough, also matches my mood at the moment. Lyrics will be posted, though I don't think she made a video for that song...Or did she? 

Losing Grip by Avril Lavigne

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?

Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real..

Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?

Why'd you turn away?

Here's what I have to say...

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there

Grinnin' with a lost stare,

That's when I decided...

Why should I care?

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared

I was so alone...

You, you need to listen!

I'm startin' to trip,

I'm losin' my grip

And I'm in this thing alone...

Am I just some chick you placed beside you,

To take somebody's place?

When you turn around can you recognize my face..?

You used to love me, you used to hug me

But that wasn't the case,

Everything wasn't okay..

I was left to cry there

Waiting outside there

Grinnin' with a lost stare,

thats when i decided...

Why should I care?

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,

I was so alone

You, you need to listen

I'm startin' to trip

I'm losin' my grip

And I'm in this thing alone

Cryin' out loud 

I'm cryin' out loud

Cryin' out loud 

I'm cryin' out loud

Open your eyes 

Open up wide

Why should I care

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared, 

I was so alone 

Why should I care

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared, 

I was so alone 

Why should I care?

If you don't care, then I don't care 

We're not going anywhere

Why should I care? 

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared 

I was so alone

Why should I care?

If you don't care, then I don't care 

We're not goin anywhere

Boosh. Found it.