)I realize it's a day late. I was lazy earlier and bummed earlier tonight because the Blues lost. But it's still relevant...Turkey day meal was even better as leftovers!)
(And I apologize for my hand-writing...it's never been good)
Friday, November 26, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
restless hearts sleep alone tonight...
Haven't really written a legit blog post for a while. If I felt up to it, I'd probably make this one way too long and that just wouldn't be cool. Luckily for you, my reader(s), I am totally not up for writing a lot right now.
I've been really restless lately. I can't sleep before 4 a.m. even if I try really hard. I actually dread having GOOD dreams instead of dreading nightmares. I don't really ever feel like leaving the house, but at the same time I'm constantly moping around wanting to have friends and a life.
I so wish I had the guts to live up to what I preach, but right now I'm a chicken and I am, once again, stuck on the sidelines. Well, I never really got off the sidelines, it was really more like moving from sitting on the bench without a uniform to putting one one only to be a benchwarmer. At least I've progressed from just being an audience to my life passing by. That's one positive. But still, benchwarmer is not much of a promotion and I need to work really hard to get my life on track and how I want it lived.
Something that bugs me....How businesses that are desperate for employees aren't willing to compromise their standards, but those of us searching for jobs are FORCED to compromise our job standards just to scrape by. It doesn't make any sense. If you're going to compulsively post the same job openings for 6 or more months, there is something wrong with YOU not the applicants. And at the point they do lower their standards, the applicant(s) are just ...over it. That don't want to work for a company who is only willing to compromise when they are at their last resort.
It's all bull shit and the real world fucking sucks.
This was longer than I thought. Sorry for that. And there is language, my apologies again...Actually, I take that back. I can use profanity if I damn well please, it's my fekking blog.
Thinking about starting a Vlog on YouTube...thoughts? Suggestions for video ideas/themes?
I miss theatre.
(I had a 5 hours energy shot because I'm crazy and now swings from depression and bitterness to randomosity are occurring. My apologies if I've given anyone whiplash.)
I've been really restless lately. I can't sleep before 4 a.m. even if I try really hard. I actually dread having GOOD dreams instead of dreading nightmares. I don't really ever feel like leaving the house, but at the same time I'm constantly moping around wanting to have friends and a life.
I so wish I had the guts to live up to what I preach, but right now I'm a chicken and I am, once again, stuck on the sidelines. Well, I never really got off the sidelines, it was really more like moving from sitting on the bench without a uniform to putting one one only to be a benchwarmer. At least I've progressed from just being an audience to my life passing by. That's one positive. But still, benchwarmer is not much of a promotion and I need to work really hard to get my life on track and how I want it lived.
Something that bugs me....How businesses that are desperate for employees aren't willing to compromise their standards, but those of us searching for jobs are FORCED to compromise our job standards just to scrape by. It doesn't make any sense. If you're going to compulsively post the same job openings for 6 or more months, there is something wrong with YOU not the applicants. And at the point they do lower their standards, the applicant(s) are just ...over it. That don't want to work for a company who is only willing to compromise when they are at their last resort.
It's all bull shit and the real world fucking sucks.
This was longer than I thought. Sorry for that. And there is language, my apologies again...Actually, I take that back. I can use profanity if I damn well please, it's my fekking blog.
Thinking about starting a Vlog on YouTube...thoughts? Suggestions for video ideas/themes?
I miss theatre.
(I had a 5 hours energy shot because I'm crazy and now swings from depression and bitterness to randomosity are occurring. My apologies if I've given anyone whiplash.)
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