but there's still tomorrow.

LAST TRAIN HOME

by the Lostprophets

One! Two! Three!

To every broken heart in here

Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared

She told me that it's all part of the choices that you make

Even when you think you're right

You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow

Forget the sorrow

And I can be on the last train home

Watch it pass the day

As it fades away

No more time to care

No more time, today

But we sing

If we're going nowhere

Yeah we sing

If it's not enough

And we sing

Sing without a reason

To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening

Picking up on the signals

Sent back from within

Sometimes it feels like 

I don't really know what's going on

Time and time again it seems like 

Everything is wrong in here

But there's still tomorrow

Forget the sorrow

And I can be on the last train home

Watch it pass the day

As it fades away

No more time to care

No more time, today

But we sing

If we're going nowhere

Yeah we sing

If it's not enough

And we sing

Sing without a reason

To ever fall in love

But we sing if we're going nowhere

Yeah we sing if it's not enough

And we sing

Sing without a reason to ever fall in love

But we sing

If we're going nowhere

Yeah we sing

If it's not enough

And we sing

Sing with out a reason to never fall in love

To never fall in love again

i scream profanities sometimes.

Fuckin' what the motherfucking fuck fuckin' fuck fuck?

......I'm not really sure that question, if it even is a question, is relevent or has any sort of meaning, but I just felt like a slew of obscenity was necessary.

I think I'm in love with Jesse Eisenberg. Upside: We'd probably have a lot in common and be at least good friends. Downside: His celebrity status, and the fact that he lives in New York City makes it really fucking difficult to even have hope for even a "celebrity sighting" to happen.

I'm watching the Education of Charlie Banks and it's really good. Never before have I seen Jason Ritter as someone who could be intimidating, but his character and the way he carries him is really effing scary. I hope he doesn't end up beating the shit out of Jesse's character. That would make me sad. The genre of the movie is drama, however, and I feel it might be inevitable. He's already stolen the girl from Charlie.

I'm not entirely sure why I feel crappy right now. I had a great night last night catching up with an old friend. I guess it ended up bringing back memories of how things used to be and now I miss Quincy way more than I already did.

It might also be a feeling of a rift starting again between me and someone very important to me. I'd like to feel free to text him as often as I do some of my other friends, but this case is special and I feel like if I do that, I will be suffocating him. He never talks to me and I don't know if he feels the same way I do and we're both letting fear get the better of us...In some way, I hope that's the case, because if it's frustrating him as much as it's frustrating me, then one of us will break soon and things could get better. Or they could be broken forever.

Or if neither of us breaks and talks, then will we both just sit on the sidelines and let it all fall away again? I'd like to think I would not let that happen again, but I cannot say the same for what he'd do. That singular question is what keeps me up every night: What would he do? What will he do? Does he think about it like I do?

I need to stop worrying about other people's thoughts and whether I cross them. I need to just trust that I do, though, that's difficult when I don't have any proof. Then again, I don't text or call anyone right as they cross my mind or every time they do. If I did, I would be a very suffocating person and they would not want me to have them cross my mind.

Insecurities: BE GONE!

(If only it were that easy.)

Sum 41's new single sounds great. It's like a mix between the Does This Look Infected? and Chuck eras. Chuck is my favorite Sum album. I'm listening to it now, as I cannot watch a movie and type at the same time. (Netflix is awesome, though makes multi-tasking on the computer difficult.)

if only characters were real.

...Why is Alistair just a character in a video game? He should be real.

Love. Love. Love. Love.

I love the game for automatically taking this screenshot.

I want my own Alistair. Right now.

questions.

It's nights like the last two, when my insomnia gets the better of me and I'm left to sit awake and wonder:

Do you think about me as much as I think about you?

Do you miss me like I miss you?

If your answers are yes, why don't you just tell me how you feel?

What are you so afraid of? Can I help?

I'm afraid, too. I thought that much has been obvious. 

...Scared that if I tell you how I feel, you'll run. I lost you once, I found out I can survive without you and your friendship, but then you came back and now I'm not sure I could do it again. 

...If I ran or forced myself to move on (like last time) would you chase? Would you do everything in your power to get me back? 

I don't know the answers to these questions and that's what bothers me. Though they may seem like a way of rushing things, I'm not asking for much, really.

Think about it...

Friends let each other know when one is missed.

Friends tell each other how they feel about just about anything.

Friends tell each other when they cross the other's mind.

True friends to everything in their power not to lose what they have.

...I'm not asking to rush to any decisions about "us" or whatever, just to have my friend back. Like how it used to be, only even better. 

Anything deeper than that can wait, I just want a more consistent friendship. Don't be afraid to talk to me.

...Most important question: Why don't you talk to me when I'm not in town? Why do you only respond to a select few things I send you?

...Makes me feel rejected and forgotten. You mean a lot to me, and if I mean nothing I need to know so I can attempt to salvage what's left of me and move on.

what do your elf eyes see?

Insomnia strikes again. I'm in a Lord of the Rings sort of mood right now, so I've been looking up random LotR stuff and decided I quite enjoyed this progression of photos:

I think Boromir's facpalm is one of the most epic one's I've seen.

And now...LotR picture spam, huzzah!

 Love. Farimir. Love.

 My Lovies, Merry and Pippin.

One ring to rule them all....

Hobbitses!

This picture is bad ass.

I *heart* Legolas.

Eowyn is amazing.

Tee hee!

Oh, memes.

They turned northeast in order to do so. 

Chill out, dude.

ode to old school avril.

I'm With You by Avril Lavigne

Im standing on the bridge

Im waiting on the dark

I thought that you'd be here

by now

Ther's nothing but the rain

no foot steps on the ground

Im listening but ther's 

no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me

Won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are but I

Im with you

Im with you

Im looking for a place

Im sarching for a face

Is anybody here 

I know

Cause nothing's going right

And everything's a mess

And no one likes to be

alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me

Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I 

Im with you 

Im with you

Oh

Why is every thing so confusing?

Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah...

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand 

Take me somewhere new

I don't Know Who You are

But I 

Im with you

Im with you

Take me by the hand 

Take me somewhere new

I don't Know Who You are

But I 

Im with you

Im with you

Take me by the hand 

Take me somewhere new

I don't Know Who You are

But I 

Im with you

Im with you

Avril is perfect for my angsty moods. didn't realize that until last weekend. Girl power, I suppose. Not in a sharing sort of mood, save for posting these lyrics and this video. I used to be totally obsessed with this song. It is probably my favorite from Let Go, with the exception of Losing Grip...which, oddly enough, also matches my mood at the moment. Lyrics will be posted, though I don't think she made a video for that song...Or did she? 

Losing Grip by Avril Lavigne

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?

Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real..

Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?

Why'd you turn away?

Here's what I have to say...

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there

Grinnin' with a lost stare,

That's when I decided...

Why should I care?

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared

I was so alone...

You, you need to listen!

I'm startin' to trip,

I'm losin' my grip

And I'm in this thing alone...

Am I just some chick you placed beside you,

To take somebody's place?

When you turn around can you recognize my face..?

You used to love me, you used to hug me

But that wasn't the case,

Everything wasn't okay..

I was left to cry there

Waiting outside there

Grinnin' with a lost stare,

thats when i decided...

Why should I care?

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,

I was so alone

You, you need to listen

I'm startin' to trip

I'm losin' my grip

And I'm in this thing alone

Cryin' out loud 

I'm cryin' out loud

Cryin' out loud 

I'm cryin' out loud

Open your eyes 

Open up wide

Why should I care

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared, 

I was so alone 

Why should I care

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared, 

I was so alone 

Why should I care?

If you don't care, then I don't care 

We're not going anywhere

Why should I care? 

'Cause you weren't there when I was scared 

I was so alone

Why should I care?

If you don't care, then I don't care 

We're not goin anywhere

Boosh. Found it.

finally, finally, finally....

FINALLY watched A Very Potter Musical.

Loved, loved, loved it. It had be cracking up at the most inopportune moments, but also had it's serious HP moments, which is fantastic for a bunch of twenty-somethings to achieve in a parody show.

Ron cracked me up. He was so ridiculous!

I have to say, though, that Malfoy took the cake as far as character-parodies go. The girl who played him (THAT in itself was hilarious!) did an awesome job and I want to hug her if I ever meet her.

^^THIS is what I think of Voldemort. ^^

I have never had a crush (or even liked) the character, but in parody form he is so funny and damn adorable (in a really weird, psychotic killer sort of way). ((Not to mention his torso is GODLY))

SO if you have not watched AVPM, GO WATCH IT! It's completely fan-made and so great. 

www.youtube.com/starkidpotter

GO NOW

I had both Saturday and Sunday off, so I ended up spending my free time watching a couple of movies. 

Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog has been on my Netflix instant watch queue for a long time but, for some reason unknown to me, I've been putting off watching it. Until now....

 And now it's plain to see that I am OBSESSED. Totally and completely OBSESSED.

 I want to marry Dr. Horrible. Neil Patrick Harris is SO AMAZING.

 And c'mon, who better to love to hate than Captain Hammer (Corporate Tool)? Nathan Fillion, for once, is someone I love to hate (Usually I just love to love his characters....)

So now I have two new soundtracks in my iTunes and they are on repeat. Dr Horrible, meet Harry Potter. Voldemort, meet Captain Hammer.

So my Saturday was spent obsessing over Dr. Horrible, and then Sunday came along. I went over to my friends' apartment and we all had pizza (it was yummy!) and watched a movie called Perfume: The Story of a Murderer"

It was fantastic. It's sort of got a Tim Burton-esque Sweeney Todd feel about it. It's pretty off-beat and could be considered distrurbing, but I highly enjoyed it and that is probably for those reasons. Ben Whishaw is the main character, Grenouille (FROG!), and while Whishaw is a pretty attractive guy, he did a great job at being a total creeper.

The story is about Grenouille and how he was born with a supersonic sense of smell, and as he got older, he realized he wanted to find a way to preserve smell...particular the smell of beautiful women.  He has strange experiments, and I'll tell you, you'll never think of perfume the same way again. I highly recommend it if you're not easily queasy or disturbed. And if you don't mind a little nudity and a very..........unique ending to a movie.

I know how you feel, Ron...Only not about Hermione. (That bitch.)